[lying down blogging..]
zzz. its been some time since i blogged..
busy with ca2..

life has been quite okay i guess..
hhahas.
but sometimes you cant help it but feel lost.
you no longer know who to go to when you are happy,
who to go to when you're down.
there's no this one person you can go to whenever you are bored, pissed off or irritated.
there's no longer a wall for you to lean on when you feel tired.
there's no this one for you to think of every minute, every second.
it just doesnt feel very right,
or should i say empty?

but somehow, i get disgusted when i see people hold hand,
or should i say imagine myself doing dat.

why is life so hard;
always trying to make everything right,
trying to please people,
trying to please yourself,
handle emotions going out-of-control and
others which you make them go out-of-control.
when can all these torture come to an end?
will there be a day when everyone gave just one partner from birth to death?
will that make us happier?
i doubt so;
thats the nature of humans- greed.
and without misery, how can one appreciate happiness?

huh, im forming a philosophy myself..
lol...
whats all this..

when will that one appear?
when will you come to add some colours to my life?
i will be waiting, for you...