hais. im crazy.
think im gonna upset at least two ppl tonight.
having some attitude prob...
just ignore me. i shall quarantine myself tonight. yepp.
im nice and i dont hurt.^^

hmm. today went studying wif xdd and julia.
nt reali study as in study bt do homework.
but end up never do alot. thx to xdd for helping.
i was so pissed wif graphs. grr.
then a damn librarian came to tell us we cant use the bench cause alot ppl.
then we moved to the floor.
5min later....
stil no ppl use the bench?!!
i went bk cos its hard to draw on floor.
then they made an announcement which practically the whole library can hear.
lol. den we decided to leave.
wanted to eat dinner together but my mum called and wanted me to leave...
bleh.

went home first.
aunty susan was there with the pierce hole thing.
lol. i got my fifth piercing. yea.
didnt hurt at all. im tough.

after that went to hospital to visit my grandma once again.
she took her scanning test. results out tmr.
she seem to be a LITTLE better then the last tym i saw her.
at least she could sleep abit.
went down to but sweets for her cos she complaining her mouth very bitter.
den on my way back, walking to the ward,
saw this mother crying quite badly...
i knew something was happening..
then follow up, gt lyk groups of ppl coming.
all with pale faces walking so quickly..
then wentto my grandma's room...
i heard lyk so many ppl crying sia. the cry was really...
i felt so... heartpain? the pain of losing a loved one... i can imagine.
i mind started to run wild.. i started to think of dumb stuff making myself scared.
hais. my old problem. lol. but better alot.
i walked out and see so many ppl standing outside the room.
all with red eyes.. sniffing away..
hmm. this made me realise how fragile a life can be.
1 life lost can make so many people sad.
a life is so easy to come by, until some even try to end it.
but when saving a life, like 1 out of 100 succeed?
when u die, its the people living on earth suffering.
hais. when can all these stop?

lol. she poor thing?
yea. mayb lah...
i dun know and i dun care.
it doesnt concern me.
am i being too bad... oh gosh.
NO WAY. after all i have suffered?
why must i let myself having the chance of suffering again?
i've been foolish bt no more.

you can go back to her if you want to. i dont give a damn.